Waiting…
I am growing to dislike weekends… when I was a kid I loved them, no school… I could lay in, it meant the “A-team” was on etc. Now it just means that I have to wait two days to hear back from the people I e-mail about work.
Last night not realizing that it was Friday I e-mailed the Howcast people requesting a new video to film, I hope I get it, the last one that I requested (Over a weekend I might add) I was denied because it had already been given to someone else. I really want/need this one. They have dozens to choose from but some of them are ridiculously over the top requiring $50-$100 worth of stuff to film and they are only paying $50 a video right now. One of the ones on the list I was really considering doing, I sat down yesterday and read the whole script because sometimes reading the list of things that are “required” and then reading the script are two different things… and well, long story short the script just sounds bad. I hope that someone can do a good job with it but to me it sounds like armature hour and I decided I don’t really want my name associated with it. Of course, once they start paying me more if it is still around… beggars can’t be choosers.
Anyway so yeah, I requested a new video and I uploaded uploaded my last one “How to Age copper”. It came out quite well, not perfect but after a week of stagnation I am just happy I could get moving on it again. I am still waiting to hear back from them about one I sent in almost two weeks ago now. They say it takes 7-10 days, both of the ones I have sent in so far have taken at least 11. then if they want changes it is going to take me another day or two to make them, re-render and upload everything… then another “7-10″ days… then they might have another round of changes. At least last time their second review didn’t take as long.
Sigh. I just feel so helpless, sitting here waiting on other people. I have stuff I can be doing for a non-paying client, and I will… just later. I’ll probably set up some files to transfer and then I will jump in the shower, I will get out feeling much better and get some real work done. sigh.
I do not think that I have ever been this broke. At least to my knowledge, I probably have been and not known it thanks to a wife who likes to sweep things under the rug… our rug got so bad I would have to walk up hill to get to the couch and I’d hit my head on the ceiling fan on the way. Now there is less under the rug and it is scary as hell. I am trying to deal with the calls as they come and pay everything we can, but not having my income has seriously crippled us. At least before when I was working for my in-laws we had some money coming in and then when Angela worked she would have that too to help pay bills and to buy herself the stuff she wanted to keep herself cheered up… now we have less money coming in than we need and a dark cloud has settled over the house, causing severe depression and no work is getting done. Not all of the bills are getting paid and things are slowly slipping downhill. Unless we can turn things around. And I am determined to turn things around. As bad as things seem I feel strangely positive today.
I have more to say but no one reads this anyway and if they do, they don’t want to read a long ass ramble about nothing. A boring stream of consciousness blog posting. I shall go now and say simply: Wish us luck people, we need it now more than ever.